Gabourey Sidibe is opening up about her struggles with psychological well being and says they started at a younger age.
The Empire star joined Taraji P. Henson on her Fb Watch present Peace of Mind with Taraji, and says she first developed despair rising up, which snowballed into anxiousness and finally Bulimia.
“I used to be so embarrassed, and I hated crying a lot, I hated it,” Sidibe instructed Henson and co-host Tracie Jenkins on Monday’s episode (January 18).
Sidibe says that whereas in school she stopped consuming for days at a time, and what she did eat she would then throw up. She says the consuming dysfunction was a “button” that will cease her from crying.
“And on prime of that, folks had been like, ‘You are wanting good.’ So I am like, why would I cease? Like, that is dope, in a manner,” she mentioned, calling it a “self-defense mechanism.”
Sidibe continued: “That is what bulimia was for me. It wasn’t about shedding pounds, it wasn’t about controlling my urge for food. It really was about the way it stopped me from crying.”
Any management Sidibe thought she did have was only a failed masks for her issues.
“It felt like I used to be controlling my feelings — I used to be not, I used to be uncontrolled. I used to be getting worse,” she mentioned. “Being depressed is one factor, if you happen to add an consuming dysfunction on prime of that, that is a complete different monster it’s a must to battle.”
Watch Gabourey Sidibe discuss her bout with despair here.